I used to love painting. I’d lose track of time mixing acrylics, getting paint under my fingernails, listening to jazz in the background. It was my escape.
But sometime last year, I noticed I stopped picking up the brush. Not because I was too busy—but because I felt… nothing. Not sad. Not angry. Just empty. Like the switch that lit me up inside had quietly turned off.
That’s when I first stumbled across the word: anhedonia—the inability to feel pleasure. It explained everything I was experiencing but didn’t have the vocabulary for.
If you’ve been there—or feel like you’re heading in that direction—this is for you.
“I Thought I Was Just Burnt Out”
For months, I convinced myself that I just needed a break. Work had been intense, relationships were messy, and I figured I was just tired. But rest didn’t help. Weekends passed, holidays came and went, and the numbness stayed.
That’s when a friend suggested trying a therapy session online. I was skeptical. I mean, could talking to someone on a screen really help?
Spoiler: It helped more than I expected.
My First Online Session
The therapist asked gentle questions. She didn’t try to “fix” me or offer toxic positivity. Instead, she helped me understand that anhedonia is often a sign of deeper, underlying issues—like depression, trauma, or chronic stress—and not just a temporary funk.
More importantly, she validated that not feeling is a feeling too—and that emotional numbness deserves just as much attention as sadness or anxiety.
The session was private, zero travel, no judgment. Honestly, I wish I hadn’t waited so long.
Why I Chose a Clinical Psychologist in Delhi
I live in Delhi, and I wanted someone who’d understand not just the clinical side of things—but the cultural pressure too. The whole “you have everything, so why are you sad?” narrative that desi parents love to push.
Click2Pro helped me connect with a Clinical Psychologist in Delhi who understood that mental health in India is still loaded with stigma and silence.
She didn’t just throw jargon at me. She asked about my upbringing, the unspoken guilt around rest, the invisible checklist we all carry of who we’re “supposed” to be. And for the first time in months, I cried. Not because I was weak, but because I felt seen.
If You Feel Nothing—Don’t Ignore It
I used to think therapy was for people in crisis. Now I know it’s for anyone who wants to feel alive again. And if you’re reading this thinking, “This sounds like me,” then maybe it’s time you reached out too.
Start with a therapy session online. No one has to know. No traffic, no awkward waiting rooms. Just you, your feelings (even the numb ones), and someone trained to help you find the switch again.